Taking my life tonight.

Sometimes the brightest smiles have the darkest demons

it’s been a pleasure.

for anyone going through some shit I’d recommend exploring other avenues before finally taking your life, I’ve unfortunately exhausted all my options.

keep on fighting my dudes, I just wasn’t strong enough

love you all


Few shout outs would be
@Wortel insanely good rat catcher, needs to be a mod/admin

@tendyies @jackthehackm8 you two are my spam forum idols

@RSGM Sales still owes me $5 for the 20 hours of live chat work I did.

@Zulu top tier staff member

 

Hi brother,

If you followed through, I hope you are in a better place. I know if you're fully ready to do it, there is nothing that can stop the brain- I hope it went easy and painless so you didn't have to endure any more suffering.

If you did stop yourself, please call a crisis or safety line. Things do get better, just give it time. Even if that means living your life hour by hour. Work with a psychiatrist, up those anti-depressants, and get your dopamine and serotonin back on track. Explore the world to find a reason to live, use distraction techniques, and practice mindfulness.

Sending my prayers to you. If I don't see your soul return, it truly has been a pleasure in the spam forums my brother.

 

Good news, not dead. Bad news, Not dead.

in ICU will probably be transferred to a psychiatric hospital once I’m physically well enough.

Will post a full review of what it’s like to cut an artery + 2 veins once I have the energy.

thank you for the words @jackthehackm8, shed a few tears over them <3

 

You are still here dude, please take the time to think about everything.

None of us are getting out of this life alive at the end of it, we will all die eventually regardless of what age we live to. Why not live your life and see what's out there?

 

life doesn't suck bro, your environment does.

Cut off all the retards and start over in a new place, and never talk to anyone that reminds you of those times again, every old head would give away everything to start young from 0.

Once you experienced the true bottom, nothing can stop you from reaching the top. Hopefully this will only be a lesson which makes you come out stronger than ever.

 

Don't know you but glad to see you are still alive bro. If you ever need someone to talk to, don't ever hesitate to reach out.

I will say count this as a blessing. You could of died that day but you didn't.