Hi we meet again!
Hey guys, since ive moved to germany 6 years ago my life has only been depressing.
i came to germany with no german skills at all, being laughed at by the german kids and mocked at because i was fat i would lock myself up in my room and try to distract myself from it , losing myself in games such as runescape.
I understand you, being foreign and overweight people will tend to mock you. WHY? Because you are different. And is different bad? No... The reason why they mock you is because they are insensitive people who gain pleasure while others feel hurt.
Since you know that these people who mock you are plain assholes, why are you bothered with their remarks? They don't care about how you feel, so why are you caring about what they say?
They are just people you don't even have connections with, strangers... Are you going to let strangers and plain assholes put you down? NO you aren't!
You should only care about the words coming out of your loved ones, not these jerks! My friend once told me, "Whenever a person insults me, i just let it go through me. When someone praises me, i take it deep into my heart, and keep it there forever!"
Next, i can understand why you befriended other assholes and became one yourself.
It is normal, trust me. You were once a victim, and it was probably the reason why you became an asshole too. But you can change and revert back!
The upcoming period was the only succesfull part of my life, when i started partying and smoking weed and chicks would run after me and i had lost my virginity a couple of weeks later.
No man, in no way this is considered successful. These are just temporary joys and highs, which will not last and stay with you forever. These moments will not mean a thing. Only by finding true happiness within yourself is success, because it stays with you forever.
And about your girlfriend, even if you lose her does not mean you lose your will to live and have fun. If things don't work out, it is better for a break-up. You've got to learn to accept those! Of course it is easy to say, but it is necessary to learn to move on with life. Afterall, you still have a whole load of opportunites ahead of you
Lastly, about your uncle's home. If you really want to return ( Do you absolutely want to return? ) then apologise and go back. But you have to be sure you will not make the same mistakes in the past.
Meanwhile you can also find friends, make new friends around your area! Trust me , it's that easy!